Question: How are Scorpios? My Opinion

My Answer To The Question:

Do You Know? That’s A Very Good Question To Ask Me And I Will Give You My Point Of View Of A Scorpio.

Mostly I Didn’t Realize At The Time That I Was Dealing With So Much Scorpio Energy. They Were All Around Me The Whole Time I Was Growing Up And I Didn’t Realize How Oblivious I Was About The Zodiac Sign. I Was Afraid Of Them Because Of A Past Related Situation That Has Happened To Me. Which I Will Share At The End Of My Point Of View.

• I Was Taught By Them
• Taken Care Of By Them
• Had Connections
• Or Still Do Have A Connection With Them
• I Almost Married To One
• I Betrayed A Few Scorpio Sun And Scorpio Rising.

Scorpios Are Like...

• Aquarius: Observant With Intelligence But Not Easily Open To Others And A Bit Different From A Normal Person.
• Taurus: Heart Warming, Sweet, But Have A Strong Protective Energy. But It Could Turn Sour (Hot/Cold Energy).
• Leo With The Energy Of Loyalty And Prideful... Yet Also Very Judgmental And Selfish. They Could Be Revengeful If Their Loyalty Is Taken Advantage Of And If They Become Heartbroken. They Believe Everyone Else Around Them Will Hurt Them Too And That's Why They Are Always Keeping A Mindful Approach To Things.

It Isn't Their Fault That Every Single Day Is Like A Warzone To Them. Everything Is Burning Around Them And They Are Basically Used To The Chaos.

It's Like Pluto.. Pluto Is Either A Planet Or Not A Planet For Many Many Years. It's Like You're Unsure Of What Type Of Energy It Is Unless You Open To It And Learn From It. Appreciate Them And Understand That They Can Be Different, But You Can Love Them Too.

• Astronomy Fact: The Answer To Why Pluto Ended Up With A Downgrade To “Dwarf Planet” Is That It Did Not Meet The Three Criteria To Be Defined As A Full-Sized Planet.
• Astrology Fact: Pluto Cycle Changes In Zodiacs Every 11 To 32 Years In A Zodiac Sign.
• Tarot Fact: 11 Is Justice Which I Always Consider It Is A Mixture Of Sagittarius And Scorpio From November. Both Of Those Energies Are VERY Intelligent And Hard-Working. I Respect Them A Lot Because They Are Very Devoted To Their Careers And How Passionate They Can Be About Their Dreams. It’s Very Attractive Honestly .. They Could Become Spiritual In Their Own Way, Not The Way Of Others. They Have A Different Mindset In Being Spiritual With 2 As High Priestess. They Tend To Relate To A Lot Of Spiritual Things In Movies, Comics, Anime, Or Just Stories. They Find The Character That Relates To Them, And They Don’t Realize That It’s A Spiritual Connection Within. They Just Need To Learn How To Find Themselves In A Different Way. Basically, Like An Unsolved Puzzle And They Must Go Deep Into The Rabbit Hole To Find Themselves. Sometimes They Get Stuck, And They Aren’t Sure How To Get Out. It’s Like Being Stuck In An Illusion And You Need Someone To Wake You Up From The Darkness.

That’s Why Persephone Fell For Hades And Hades Fell For Persephone. Persephone Was His Light To The World And How He Saw The World Within Her Eyes. She’s The Goddess Of Spring On The Earth But The Queen Of The Underworld During Winter And Fall. Without Them Both.. The World Wouldn’t Go Through Seasons And Changes. They Are A Power Couple Team In A Relationship. This Is Why Persephone Is Pisces And Virgo Mixed While Hades Is A Scorpio With The Aries Mixed In. March Is The New Year On The Spiritual Side Of Things. This Is Why A Lot Of Witches Respect Those Two Gods Very Strongly.

• Scorpio Sun When It Comes To Characters, They Go More For The Appearance And Personality.
• Scorpio Moon Thinks Of The Character With Their Mind Body And Soul In The Manner.
• Scorpio Rising Sees Everything About The Character As Being 100% Relatable. Which Is Why They Tend To Develop Different Personas.

When It Comes To 32 Is A Reminder That You’re Not Alone. 5 Is The Hierophant That Is Converted With The Energy Of The Divine Feminine Empress And Divine Masculine Emperor. These 2 Energies Are What Help The Scorpio To Become The Most Desirable Human Being. Now When I Say That.. They Must Be Grounded For Them To Look Desirable. Some Scorpios Become Overwhelmed Because They Don’t Understand Why People Cling To Them Too Strongly. People Look At Them Because They Have An Appearance Of A Strong Attorney Figure. They Are Very Understanding When It Comes To Other People’s Pain And How They Deal With Life. They Are Very Good Caregivers, And They Show Their Heart Of Gold To People. I Mean Think About It? The Death Card Of Transformation And Emperor Card of Masculine. That's Very Strong Energy Here.

When They Fall In Love .. They Don’t Know How To Handle The Situation And They Become Super Nervous At Times. It’s Very Overwhelming To Them And They Self-Sabotage Everything Around The Connection Of The Relationship. It’s Like Friendships Or Business Partners. Once They Do Their Following Trials On Certain People And Connections, They Can Show The Best Side Of Themselves. You Can Become A Powerful Potential Relationship That Can Be Mixed With Business, Love, Friendship, And Balance Within Each Other.

When They See Someone, Their Love Pass Away, Leave Them, Or Just Hurt Them. They Become Shut Down, Miserable, And Distant From Everyone. They Close Every Single Door Of Their Walls And They Don’t Allow People Inside. It’s A Very Difficult Situation And Only Certain Energies Can Have The Key To Their Hearts. Some Energies Must Solve The Puzzle To Figure Out How To Come Back Inside. The Only Issue Is... Will The Scorpio As The Gate Keeper Of His Own Mind Allow You In?

That All Depends On How You Treat The Situation When They Disappear From You. They Are Like The Magician... They Can Magically Disappear And Reappear. You Just Have To Be Positive And Trust Them So That They Will Come Back To You. It Takes Time But If You’re Patient With Them. They Will Treat You Like Gold. The Love, Respect, And Loyalty They Give You. No Matter If You’re Their Friend, Family, Or Lover. It’s The Best Feeling In The World And It’s Beautiful. You Are Treated Like Royalty Like You’re The Queen Or King In Their Eyes.

That’s Why 23 Which Is Change, Progress, And Growth Can Be Very Relatable To Scorpio. Scorpio Is The ODD Numbers 1 3 5 8 11 13 15 18 And 21 In The Tarot And Relatable Energies Of The Astrology Signs.

• 1: Magician (Capricorn/Aquarius/January/Saturn)Manifestation Of The Wheel of Fortune And The Sun Card Of Happiness. You Can Manifest Things Into Your Life But You Must Trust.
• 3: Empress (Aries/Scorpio/April/Mars/Pluto)Of The Hanged Man And Divine Feminine. They Must Learn To Find Their Sensitive Side And Surrender Within Themselves To Trust Connections Better.
• 5: Hierophant (Gemini/Taurus/May/Venus)Of The Temperance In Patience, Balance Within The Connection Of Spiritual And Work.
• 8: Strength (Leo/Virgo/August/Sun/Mercury)Of The Star Card In Strength And Manifestation. Let Go And Trust The Universe For New Beginnings Of Wishes. 
• 11: Justice (Sagittarius/Scorpio/November/Jupiter/Pluto/Mars)Of Justice In The High Priestess Spiritual Connections Within Yourself And Others. You're Going Into Trial To Learn How To Trust And Judge Better As A Scorpio. 

Deeper Meaning:

• 13: Death Scorpio For Pluto With Emperor (4): Scorpio/Aries For Mars. This Connects With 4 The Month Of April That Brings 1^st Trial Lesson To Connect With The Last 2 Trials. We Have 4 Different Seasons With 3 Different Obstacles In The Year.

January To March Has Ended (1^st Trial) And Now April 4 Month Has Ended Too Which Is The First Beginning Of Our 2^nd Trial And How We Handle It.

Of Course… We Just Started Mercury Retrograde And That’s Another Test In The Mind Of The World And Within Yourself. Mercury Is To Teach You How To Control Yourself In Situations And Not Rush Into Things. Mercury Runs Hot Or Cold, And You Must Be Very Careful In Your Mindset With Obstacles, Connections, And Yourself. We Always Deal With 3 To 4 Times With Mercury Retrograde In The Year. April-May, August-September, December-January… But The Difference With Retrograde. We Are Being Pulled Backward To Reset, Recover, And Reconnect With Ourselves. That’s Why A Lot Of Life Lessons Come Back To Remind Us Of Things. It’s Like A Mirror Situation That Might Have Happened At The Beginning Of The Year Or The Year Before This One. That’s Why Even And Odd Are Like Yin Yang In Situations Like Retrograde Being The Mirror Within The Universe.

•  15: The Devil Capricorn For Saturn With The Lovers(6) Gemini/Taurus For Venus. This Energy Here Is The Biggest Energy That A Scorpio Deals With The Most. They Are Super Guarded Because The Energy Between 6 Is 5 And 7. When It Comes To 15, It’s 14 And 16… And Let Me Tell You Something. This Is The Scariest Test In Life Because It Could Fuck With Your Mental Health.

I Can Say As A Person Who Was Born With The Power 6 In Numerology. Being Born At 6 Am In The Morning With 11 Minutes Gives Me The Power Of 8 In Leo. I Am A Grand Cross Of Scorpio Pluto, My Mars Is In Taurus, My Descendant Is In Leo And My Rising Is Aquarius. I Dealt With A Lot Of Changes During Mercury Retrograde To Help Me Grow. I Used To Be Afraid Of Mercury Retrograde But Not Anymore. Why? Because I Was Created In Late May Of Gemini And I Am A Virgo Moon Which Both Are Ruled By Mercury.

Yes, I Went Through The Pains Of May, June, And July Up And Down Each Time. Yes, I Went Through Moments Of Patience Of Temperance (14), Temptation Of The Devil (15), And Unexpected Moments Of The Tower Card (16).

But I Am Okay Because,

• During May, I Learned To Build A Balance Between Myself In Love, Career, And Self Or I Had To Learn It The Hard Way.
• During June, I Tend To Have Self Love Situations Or Self Growth. I Either Am Happy Or Dealing With Heartbreak In Relationships.
• When It Comes To July It’s The Same Thing And Funny Enough For All 3 Months Of The Year For Me…
• May June And July Can Be A Blessing Or A Curse. I Had To Learn What It Means To Have A Relationship With Myself And Love Myself Before Loving Another Person. I Understand And I Am Learning.

Down With The Fallen Again By Starset

Tired Eyes, Barely Open
Crippled By A Promise Broken
I Have Seen An Empire Falling
Hopeless, Can You Hear Me Calling?

Turn Away From All That I Know
Burning This Bridge Behind Me
Light The Way And I'll Follow
Where You Go

Can You Tell Me What Is Real?
'Cause I've Lost My Way Again
Can You Tell Me How To Feel?
'Cause I Don't Feel Anything
Now That I'm Down Here Again
I'm Down With The Fallen Again

Searching Through The Darkness Below
For A Light In Seas Of Shadows
Far From You, But I Could Never
Abdicate, I'll Fight Forever

Turn Away From All That I Know
Burning This Bridge Behind Me
Light The Way And I'll Follow
Where You Go

Can You Tell Me What Is Real?
'Cause I've Lost My Way Again
Can You Tell Me How To Feel?
'Cause I Don't Feel Anything
Now That I'm Down Here Again
I'm Down With The Fallen Again

I Will Not Run
I Will Not Fall
I Will Not Bury It

This Is War
War
This Is War
War

Tell Me What Is Real
'Cause I've Lost My Way Again
Can You Tell Me How To Feel?
'Cause I Don't Feel Anything
Now That I'm Down Here Again

Tell Me What Is Real?
'Cause I've Lost My Way Again
Can You Tell Me How To Feel?
'Cause I Don't Feel Anything
Now That I'm Down Here Again
I'm Down With The Fallen Again

It Just Played While I Was Thinking Of This Blog While Writing.

Interesting Share: Dustin Bates Is A Scorpio Moon In The 8^th House Of Scorpio With A Knowledge Of Astrology, Astronomy, And Engineering. I Believe This Man Has Dealt With So Much Pain And Suffering To Finally Get What He Has Manifested. I Believe That Ever Since I Was Introduced To This Band Starset. It Transforms Me With This Energy That I Can Relate To Life And Go Beyond Studying Things Without Any Fear. I Used To Be Afraid Of The Unknown, But He Has Taught Me So Much Not To Be Afraid. His Energy Helped Me Predict Things While I Was Dealing With A Scary Situation That I Didn’t Know I Was Putting Myself Into.

I Predicted His Concert Tour Multiple Times, And I Manifested Two Of My Famous Bands To Work Together. It Was A Dream Come True For Me And I Really Connect Strongly With The Band. I’ve Tapped Into Other Energies And Dimensions Within Myself During Meditation. When I Have His Music Playing Around Me.. I Can Tune Out And Channel The Energy Within Me To Predict Things. I Either Draw It, Write It Out Or Speak It Out. I Never Went To His Concerts And The Last Chance I Had Was For The Year 2022.

I Picked That Day To Be With Someone Special In My Heart. Which Was A Scorpio Sun Than See A Scorpio Moon That I Probably Wouldn’t Have Any Connections With. Do You See What I Am Saying Here? I Deal With Temptation All The Time. It’s Fine And I Am Learning To Pick Things Calmly And Not Rush Into Things. I Look Back And I Pay Attention To How Strong I Am Now. I Am Not Taking Things Immaturity And I’m Trying To Be Very Calm About Things.

Example Of The Power Of 6 In Lovers And 15 The Devil Of Temptation.

I Went Through A 6-Year Trial Of Narcissistic Energy That I Didn’t Realize That I Was In. I Was An Experiment For Someone Else’s Amusement. I Don’t Know How Karma Will Hit This Person, But He Destroyed Me. Mentally Emotionally But Not Physically.

Let Me Give An Example: When Johnny Depp Had The Trial With Amber On April 11 To June 1 2022 ... That Triggered Me So Much. Let’s Calculate This For A Moment In What Energy This Way.

April 11, 2022 (4+2+6=12 The Hanged Man With Empress) And June 1 2022 (6+1+6=13 The Death With Emperor) Oh My..

The Empress Had To Surrender To The Trial And Accept What Will Happen Next. The Trial Of Patience Went Through Few Months For Johnny Depp. Johnny Deep Is Born On June 9 1963 (6+9+19+63=97=16/7) Johnny Depp Deals With The Chariot And That Energy Is The Tower Of 16. Johnny Always Has Obstacles In His Life No Matter What He Does As A Gemini Sun Capricorn Moon. Gemini Is Actually The Lovers And Capricorn Is The Devil.. Which Means He Has The Energy Neighbor Of 6 And 15. His Rising Is Leo In 8 Which Is The Neighbor Of 7 And His Saturn In Aquarius In Saturn Retrograde. Which Connects With The Star Of 17 In Aquarius Energy.

I Dealt With Mentally And Emotionally Abuse By A Person Who Was So Cancerous. It Reminded Me Of The Mind Tricks That I Dealt With. He Was A Cancer Sun Aries Moon And Sagittarius Rising… This Man Changed My Mindset, My Heart, And Soul Into An Illusion And Snap Into Reality. This Man Would Play Mind Games On Me And Make Me Bring Up The Ugly Side Of Me That I Never Like To Show. As A Pisces Sun In 1^st House Of Aries That Shares Aquarius Rising And Venus. He Bought Out The Ugly Within Me That Wanted To Show Blood. He Made Me Look Like The Bad Guy When HE WAS THE ONE. Funny.. I Am The Psycho. Right..

I Dealt With This 2 Times In The Past.. When I Was 16-18(2), 19-23(4), And 26-32(6) With 2 Extra Years Of Manipulation After The Relationship... It’s Over And I Am Finally Free From That. But... I Am Also Free Because It Takes 3 Trials To Learn To Grow Up. The Last 2 Years Were A Shadow Period That I Was Trying Hard To Wake Up From. I Was Still Detoxing But I Kept Predicting A Lot Of Things That Were Behind The Scenes. He Hated Me Listening To Starset And He Would Criticize Me With What I Enjoyed In Music. I Would Question Him, And I Go That’s So Weird... The Singer Used To Work For The Airforce Military With Nasa Engineering. My Ex Boyfriend Is An Ex Air Force Military Solider For Underground Security.

He Disapproved Of It, And I Would Listen To It Behind His Back When He Wasn’t Around Me. Every Single Time I Would Listen To Music... I Would Find New Unlocked Hidden Secrets About Who I Was With. “Curiouser And Curiouser”.. Maybe I Should Follow The White Rabbit.. Wrong .. The White Rabbit Pushed Me Into Wonderland Which Had The Underworld Mixed In. During Those 6 Years… I Had Connections That Came Into My Life And Connections That Ended Up Being Destroyed By Him. I Was Able To Save Some Of Them After My 2 Years Of Shadow Period And Some I Had To Lose Or I’m Not Sure Of.

We Did Start The Water Rabbit This Year .. Maybe I Still Have Time To Find The Lost Souls. The Energies Of Certain People Disappeared During That Time. 

• Gemini/Cancer 18: The Moon And (9) In Hermit Virgo/Libra

This Energy Taught Me That I Was Going Through A Transformation. When I Say… I Betrayed A Scorpio… I Did And I Feel Sorry Till This Very Day. I Asked My Mentor Many Times If I Should Go Tell This Person Sorry. Could I Do Something? He Told Me “Remember How She Told You Her Story About Him And How She Was Hurt For 10 Years”. I Explained Yeah... And Another 5 Years With Him. That’s Basically The Same Energy That I Dealt With. Sometimes I Wonder If I Saved Her Or Betrayed Her. How Many Times Did She Get Cheated By Him? How Many Times Did She Want To Keep Moving On And He Kept Holding Back To Stay? He Did It To Me For 6 ½ Years And I Could Imagine Her Pain. I Truly Can Because She Had It For 15 Years And I Had It For 6 Years. It’s Like A Rip To The Heart Honestly. She Moved On And I Think If I Bring Up Everything That Happened To Me After She Warned Me. She Probably Would Get Extremely Mad At Me And Also Triggered. I Believe That It's Better For Me Not To Bring That Up To Her. I Believe And I Hope She Stopped Talking To Him. The Woman Had The Same Energy As A Scorpio That Betrayed Me When I Was 19. The Same Birthday And Mindset That I Would Get Me Triggered. I Believe That The Person Who Brainwashed Me Is The Cancer Sign, Who's My Ex.. He Knew That I Was Traumatized By Scorpio And He Used It To His Advantage. I Had Poor Judgment In The Past For My Triggers And He Used It As His Weapon Upon Me. I Also Had Poor Judgement In Astrology Signs Too Strongly. That Was A Toxic Trait Of Mine And I Learned That You Should Never Judge Someone For Their Placements Until You Let Them Into Your Circle. 

But I Learned And I Will Explain That With Why ..

I Have And I Won’t Say "Had". I Don’t Believe It’s The End Of The Connection. I Have A Scorpio During My 6 Years When I Was Dealing With Mental And Emotional Abuse. He Was The Kindest Energy That I Ever Met In My Life, And I Adore Him For That. I Don’t Think He Understands How Much I Appreciate Him. He Comes And Goes Often In My Life, But I Will Always Have The Door Wide Open For Him. The Light Is On With The Light Of The Tunnel Down The Dark Path. I Am Always Waiting And Allowing This Energy To Come In And Out. He Doesn’t Understand But He Needs To Know That He Has Shown A Big Difference In My Life, And He Still Does. He’s My Tower And Chariot Of My Life And He Transformed Me Each Time. I Am Crying Now Because Of The Song That I Think Of When It Comes To These Good Memories. Is “Last To Fall” In Starset. It Started To Play In The Background While I Was Typing This.

And I Fly
Further Away
Than I've Ever Been Before
It's Safe To Say
This Sky
Is Lonely And Grey
But Every Night I Feel Your Gravity Waves

And The World Is Cold
But It's Beautiful
I Wish You Were Here Now
I Miss Your Soul
But You Lost Your Light
When The Darkness Called
But I Stand Here Waiting

The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall

And I Fly
Above The Enslaved
My Soul Is Burning
Like Earth Reclaimed
And I Try
A Final Crusade
This World Is Changing
But I'm Still The Same

And Will You Be Bold?
Will You Lose Control?
I Could Never Desert You
I Could Never Let Go
If You Fall In Line
And The Zenith Calls
I'm Standing Waiting

The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall

It's Your Magnetic Hold
A Gravity Pull
I Can Feel You In Waves
When Your Melody Comes
It Falls From Above
I Will Not Be Afraid.

The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall
The Last To Fall

I Will Keep Waiting Even If I am Doing Other Things In My Life. Personal Life Goals For My Growth In Self And Career.

Like I’ve Done All These Years Because You Were The Only Person Who Came To See Me When I Almost Died In Front Of Everyone That I Care About. I Almost Died On April 29, 2018, And I Almost Died On May 1, 2018. 2 Days Before I Was In The Hospital .. We Were Together At A Party And Just Working Together. I Was Enjoying The Time, But I Just Kept Feeling Off. You Even Noticed And I Remember That Day. You Cared So Much About How I Was Feeling. You Need To Understand That You Showed Me The Type Of Kindness That I Am Not Used To. During Child Birth February 20th Was The Lunar Eclipse Of The Blood Moon And I Wouldn't Come Out. I Almost Died, I was Pre-matured As 6lb Around 6:11am On A Heavy Rainy Stormy Day. It Was 2 Days That I Was Giving My Mother A Hard Time With Child Birth. Well.. This Time It Was A Different Reaction.

The Rebirth: When I Called You That Day And Told You The News After 2 Days Of Feeling Clueless At The Party.. You Were There Feeling Worried For Me And Coming Into That Hospital Room Concerned For Me. You Were Confused About Why I Was There Like I Was. Everyone Was Wondering What Was Going On And What Was Going To Happen To Me. I Kept Joking Around And Just Living The Day Like It Was Nothing. I Take Death Like Humor Because I Guess I Am Used To The Chaos. At 11:30 Pm (13 Death / 4 Emperor: Scorpio/Aries). I Found Out That I Needed An Emergency Abortion, And I Had My Son Dead Inside Of Me. He Was Supposed To Be A Scorpio Baby In November. The Scorpio That Was There In The Room Was A Scorpio Sun And I Also Had A Scorpio Rising Who Was My Ex-Partner Of The Creation Of My Son. I Had The Temperance And Hierophant Of The Scorpio Rising. Always Teaching Me Patience And Balance Within Myself, Love, And Hard Work. I Had The Tower And Chariot Of The Scorpio Sun There Reminding Me That No Matter What… The World Could Be Burning All Around Me With Chaos And Unexpected Obstacles. I Can Still Stand Up And Handle The World With My Own Weapon.

I Was Going Through A Strong Transformation Within Myself. Who Knows? Maybe My Son Was Supposed To Be A Scorpio Stellium Because I Know Damn Well. He Would Have Been A Handful For Me, And I Would Of Loved Him To Death. Funny How I Would Tell Myself “I Want A Sagittarius But In November” But Something Was Telling Me That Could Have Been A Flip Coin. Calculating The Due Date And The Pregnancy Lab Results. I Placed Them To Be Matched And It Would Have Been A Late October Or Early November Scorpio Baby. I Was Pregnant In Mid-February, And I Knew Something Felt Off During My Birthday That Year. That Was The Last Time I Saw My Ex’s Ex-Wife Whom I Betrayed And That’s When I Went Through A Transformation.

The Woman I Betrayed Was A Woman Who Was Dating Someone Who Manipulated Me For 6 1/2 Years. He Ruined My Engagement Of 5 Years But Not The Friendship Or Connection. He Took Away My Dream Of Getting Married But Maybe It Was The Universe Telling Me I Wasn’t Ready. I Noticed That I Fucked Up My First Engagement Because I Had Someone Confusing Me. Its Interesting Too Because My Engagement Is Sailor Moon And She’s The Cancer Sign.

My Ex-Fiancé Gemini/Aries/Scorpio Energy Even Told My Ex-Boyfriend Cancer/Aries/Sagittarius Energy That “You Confused The Fucking Girl Into Thinking She Will Have Everything.” I Remember His Words And What He Yelled At Him With.. I Remember The Words When He Made My Ex-Boyfriend Cry. I Smiled That Night Because That Night I Learned Who Cared For Me The Most No Matter What. May 10, 2021 (11 Justice 2 High Priestess) The Scorpio Rising Yelled At The Sagittarius Rising The Power Of 11 Justice And 2 High Priestess As Myself The February Pisces Sun.

I Requested To Go Home After Getting Dumped On May 9 2021 (The Sun 19, The Wheel Of Fortune 10, And Magician 1) I Am The Grand Cross Of Fixed Aquarius Scorpio Taurus And Leo.. I Wanted Happiness And I Spin The Wheel Of Fortune To Go Through The Gamble Of Trust For A New Beginning. I Got Dropped Off The Next Day On 10th, Which Was The 10 The Wheel Of Fortune. The Day That He Broke Up With Me, I Ran Away To The Middle Of My Community To Connect With The Lake And Meditate. I Asked For Help, And I Requested A Sign. The Whole Time I Was Sitting There To Connect With The Energy. I Heard “Leave And Don’t Come Back.” … I Called My Ex-Fiance To Let Him Know What Was Going On And He Told Me To Come Back. At First He Asked Me "Do You Want Me To Get You Right Now?" And I Told Him "No, Let Him Take Me Down. He Owes Me This"

Ricochet By Starset

All These Broken Souls
Each One More Beautiful
They Don't, They Don't Know My Heart
They Don't Know My Heart

I'll Send Out My Soul
To Worlds More Beautiful
But They Won't, They Won't Know My Heart
It's The Darkest Part

We Were One In The Same
Running Like Moths To The Flame
You'd Hang On Every Word I'd Say
But Now They Only Ricochet
You Were Falling Away
You Left Me With A Bittersweet Taste
But When I Send My Heart Your Way
It Bounces Off The Walls You Made
Ricochet

It's Over, It's Done. I Am Not Going To Come Back And I Was Tested Once Again.

When I Came Back To My Home Town Being Dropped Off By My Ex-Boyfriend To Be With My Ex-Fiancé. My Ex-Fiancé Couldn’t Look At Him At All And The Only Thing He Said To Him.

“You Couldn’t Even Be A Man To Her And Be Patient With Her” ..

I Suffer From Bipolar, PTSD, Anxiety Depression… My Ex-Fiancé Was My Best Friend Of 10 Years And My Ex-Partner Of 5 Years. I Never Saw Him Mad Except 2 Times Before With Me But With This Ex-Boyfriend Of Mine. He Had No Respect For Him At All. I Get It And I Understand Because Of The Shit I Went Through... And The Energy I’ve Always Had. My Ex-Fiancé Didn’t Want Me To Keep Having Broken Romantic Relationships And Sadly He Was One Of Those Relationships. We Forgave Each Other But We Aren’t Close Friends Like We Used To Be. It Happens... And I Learned A Lot From This Lesson. I Learned To Trust And Not Judge Too Quickly, To Observe And Just Be Cautious In A Healthy Way Not In Fear And I Learned What Real Love And Friendship Feel Like. My Ex-Fiancé Dealt With Two Souls That Did A Good And Bad Impact On Me. The Scorpio Sun Was A Good Energy To Teach Me To Love Myself And The Cancer Sun Ended An Old Energy Of Mine That I Never Want To Bring Back. He Trusted The Scorpio Sun Over The Cancer Sun Through The Years. 

What I Finally Let Go Of During The Age Of 32 (5) The Hierophant Aka Taurus In My Mars And Jupiter. (14) The Temperance In Sagittarius. My First Love Is A Sagittarius Sun And Moon .. He Has A Strong Personality That No One Understands But Me. He’s The Wheel Of Fortune And Magician In My Life. He Always Wanted Me To Be Happy And He Always Told Me That He Never Wants Me To Go Through Danger Ever Again. He Was Upset When He Let Me Go To Be With Someone Else. He Regrets That Because I Ended Up With My 3rd Narcissist Relationship When He Saved Me From My First. He Was There From The Age Of 11 To 33. He Was Disappointed That It Has Happened To Me Again With My Ex-Fiancé And He Thought I Was Going To Finally Be Happy. I Told Him I Was Sorry, And It Was My Fault. I Told Him Everything That Had Happened, And He Told Me That It Was The Fault Of Both Of You, Like Him And I. He Told Me That These Things Happen, And We Need To Learn From Them. Like He Did And How He Went Through Years Of Therapy Because Of Me. Yes.. I Put Him Into Therapy, And He Still Spoke To Me Over The Years Of 22. I Am February 22nd And We Had 2 Chances In Being Together. Before My 2nd Narcissist Boyfriend And Before Being With My Ex Fiancé. He Felt Happy That I Found Someone That Made Me Smile But I Was Just Starting And Living My Life. No Matter What I Always Told Him How Sorry I Was And How I Wish I Knew What I Was Doing Back In The Past. I Was A Narcissist To Him, And He Allowed It Because He Saw Something In Me That Could Change. He Did And My Ex-Fiancé Believed I Could Change, And They Were Right. Once I Finally Showed I Changed And How I Was Doing Better In 2022. He Finally Told Me He Stopped Going To Therapy And How Happy He Has Been. I Was Very Happy For Him Too And I Always Told Him. “I Always Want The Best For You Like You Want For Me. I Am Always Here For You”… He Didn’t Need Me Anymore And I Didn’t Need Him Anymore. Our Connection Disconnected But It Is Still Open To Communicate. We Both Now Have Different Paths And We Have Now Learned Growth.

But There Was Something I Needed To Share And My Sagittarius Ex Told Me Something That He Was Upset With Me. He Told Me That I Needed To Confront The Monster And Move On From It. He Also Told Me Do Not Go Back To Your Ex Boyfriend Who's The Cancer And Move On. Get Yourself Mentally Treated And It Reminded Me What My Ex Fiancé Told Me. "You Are Stronger Than That". I Listened To Both And Went Through A New Journey In Life. I First Confronted The Monster Before Going Through Therapy And Finding Mentors.

The Monster: I Was 19.. Everything Turned Around For Me After A Horrible Situation That Had Gone Wrong With A Scorpio Sun. The Scorpio Sun During The Time Of Age Of 14-19 Was Very Supportive Of Me. He Taught Me How To Grow, Defend, Change My Personality To Not Let Anyone Take Advantage Of Me, And Appreciate Myself More. He Has The Same Birthday And Year As The Woman I Betrayed That Was Married To The Cancer/Aries/Sagittarius Energy Who Hurt Me. It's Very Sad Too Because I Didn't See Him In That Way, And He Turned Into A Monster. The Monster Came Out Of Him In RED Mode And Changed My Day Into A Nightmare. After That Night In December…A Few Days After My Sagittarius Ex-Boyfriend’s Birthday. He Didn't Understand Why I Disappeared Or Never Spoke To Him. For Years He Was Wondering What Happened To Me And Why I Disappeared. Even Though He Was Living Near Me, Working Near Me, And Would See Me From Far. Wanting To Come Up To Me And Speak To Me. Asking Me What Happened.

I Had A Stalker, And I Didn’t Know Until One Day When I Was 32.

I Was Told By My Ex-Sagittarius To Confront Him. Why? Because My Ex Was Extremely Pissed At Me. Even Though I Told Him When I Was 19 What Had Happened To Me With The Scorpio. During Those Times Of The Age Of 19.. My Ex-Boyfriend Was Very Pissed At Me Because I Broke His Heart. He Was Spiteful And He Didn’t Believe Anything I Said. I Bit My Tongue In Silence For Years Until That One Night When I Was 31 Almost Hitting 32 In February. He Was So Mad At Me Because He Said “You Don’t Understand How Much He Has Been Looking For You. How Much He Wonders Why You Don’t Speak To Him. You Need To Tell Him How Much He Has Hurt You And Fucked With Your Mind. You Will Get Your Justice.” I Understand What He Was Saying Because He's The Direct Type And Very Blunt. He Was Also Pissed Off That His Best Friend Did Something Traumatic To His First Love Who's His Ex.

Now Did I Really Get My Justice? I Don’t Know.. Did I? I Think I Did Because I Grew Up.

I Confronted My Monster By Appearing In His Life And Explaining To Him What Had Happened. What He Did To Me And He Got His Answers. I Learned That Day .. I Was Stalked For Years And How He Knew Very Well Not To Confront Me Ever Again. He’s Right.. Because One Time He Did, And I Was Sitting Down With My Ex-Fiancé Relaxing. He Was Standing By Me And He Started To Speak... Asking What Are We Doing. My Ex-Fiancé Didn’t Know Who He Was But Nicely Replied To Him. I Quickly Felt Sick To My Stomach, Grabbed My Ex’s Hand, And Crossed The Street Quickly. I Took Him Deep Into The Beach And I Threw Up From Feeling Sick To My Stomach. He Didn’t Understand Until I Told Him To Give Me A Moment. Confronting Him Made Me Change And Transform... I Did Get The Justice That I Wanted, And I Also Was Able To Connect With Others Again With No Fear. My Ex Was Right... I Was Able To Manifest Back Myself Again And Grow. I Was Able To Transform And Learn Not To Be Afraid Ever Again. 

Scorpio Takes All That Energy In From Fixed Signs. They Also Share The Energy Of Aries Which Is Mars. They Have Strong Energy And Want To Take Things Alone On Their Own. They Would Rather Suffer In Silence Than Share Their Feelings With Others. They Are The Wounded Warrior And When They Find Kindness In Others. Sometimes They Self-Sabotage The Connection Because They Don't Know How To Handle It. I Did It So Many Times In Every Single Relationship That I Had. But, I Never Cheated And They Cheated On Me. Once They Cheated On Me .. I've Became So Revengeful And I Wasn't Mature. I Dealt With Things In Such A Toxic Way And I Had To Learn To Mature Myself Over The Years. I Started In The Age Of 16 To 31, Which Is 16 Years Of Toxic Energies And I Had To Learned It The Hard Way. I Need To Pay The Price Of All The Energies That I Dealt With. The Energies That I Myself Self-Sabotage And The Energies That I Betrayed Because I Was Too Afraid. I Did Suffer With Some Rotten Apples But I Did Had Good One Mixed In.

• Scorpios Are Very Romantic Like My Pisces Sun With This Sweet Kind Side. When I Am Into Someone.. I Give Them My 100% Of My Energy And Sometimes I Get So Nervous. I Feel Like I Am Going To Ruin Everything In The Connection. 
• They Are Guarded Like The Cancer With The Hermit Energy Ready To Fight Anyone Around Them. I Am Cancer In Charon In The 3rd House Of Gemini. I Love TOO STRONG And I Get Hurt TOO Deep. I Have To Learn To Balance Myself During Each Transformation. 

Scorpio Is The Tower Card With The Chariot. They Deal With Overwhelming Unexpected Situations That Can Be Nice At First And Convert Into Bad. Depending On How They Handle The Situation And If They Are Willing To Fix It. They Can Because They Have Aquarius As The Magician, Taurus As The Hierophant, Leo As The Strength, And Scorpio As The Death Card. Which Is Also My Energy Of The Grand Cross Of Fixed Signs Aka The Wheel of Fortune.

They Are Also Pluto Of The Transformation With The Death Card. A Lot Of Things Must Die Around Them To Start A New Beginning. They Have To Let Go Of The Past To Connect With The Things That They Truly Wish For.. Sometimes They Must Leave Others To Learn If They Are Worth Coming Back To And Reconnecting. Scorpios Tend To Test Others From Head To Toe Because They Aren't The Type Of People To Waste Time. They Want To Live In The Moment Because They Dealt With Too Much Chaos. When They Are Around People That They Trust And They Can Open Up To.. It Feels Like Paradise To Them, And They Never Want It To End. They Are Able To See Color With Those Type Of Connections Instead Of Black And White. When They Are Unsure Of A Connection, It Could Look Gray.

The Color Connection Feels Calm And Relaxing To Them Like Water Was Poured Down On The Burning Building Of Their Mind. Having A Scorpio Is Like A Blessing To Me Because They Are Transforming You. Sometimes It Could Be A Curse And Turn Your Life Around By Waking You Up To Reality. It’s A Big, Huge Transformation That You Need To Trust And Handle. I Believe And Understand Now What My Teacher Has Said And Thought. He Believed I Was A Scorpio Rising And When He Announced Aquarius Rising Will Feel Like A Scorpio. He Wasn’t Wrong... He’s Not Wrong At All. He's A Scorpio Sun With Scorpio Moon And Scorpio Stellium. He's Actually Going To Be Doing A Birth Chart Reading About Me On May 1st On The Day Of The Death Card Of Pluto/Scorpio And Emperor Of Mars/Aries. I Am Actually Going Through A New Transformation At The Moment With My Pisces Sun, Aquarius Rising And Aquarius Venus In The 1st House Of Aries. I Am Learning, Changing, And Transforming Into A New Self. By The End Of The Year.. I Might Not Be The Old Me Anymore. 

I Am Ready For This New Change And Also What Can Be Channeled In From My Birth Chart. Why? Because It's The Anniversary Of Being Given The 6th Time To Live. I Am Also Doing A New Project Change With My Company After 13 Years Once Again. My Anniversary Is In April And Tomorrow Is The Anniversary Of My Son's Announcement Of Death And My 2nd Time Almost Dying At The Hospital I Was Born In. Oh Yah.. So I Was Born In The Same Hospital That I Had My Abortion. Tomorrow Marks The Anniversary Of The New Connections In My Life, Reconnections And Removals Of My Life. I Am Still Growing But The Power Of 11 In Justice Was Always There With Energy 29.

• Scorpio Sun Helps You With Your Appearance, Self, And Personality.
• Scorpio Moon Is More About Your Emotions And How You Handle Things In Life.
• Scorpio Rising Is About The Energy Within You And How You Become The Real You Inside And Out.
• Scorpio Venus Teaches You How To Self-Love Yourself, How To Learn About Romance, And How You're Able To Handle A Relationship Between The Good And Bad.
• Scorpio Mars Is More About How You Handle Your Responsibilities And When Things Can Become Hot Or Cold In Situations.
• Scorpio Mercury Is Like The Thermometer Of Hot And Cold, Dry And Moist, Yin And Yang Of How You Think Of Things Mentally And Emotionally.
• Scorpio Pluto Is The Transformation Within Yourself And The World Around You.

That's Why We Go Through Phases Like The Moon Cycles And The Seasons Like Hades And Persephone. I Will Eventually Learn More About Saturn, Jupiter, And Uranus. But, For Now, I Am Still Learning As A Student And Learning More About The Astrology Side Of Life. It’s Like A Metaphysical Experience Of The Unknown From The Universe. It’s Scary But Interesting At The Same Time. Was This Blog Intense? But Interesting? Yes.. That’s A Scorpio For You And That’s The Energy Of Chaos That A Scorpio Goes Through. I Don't Take Astrology So Strong To The Point That It Controls My Life. I Just Noticed That It Could Be Very Relatable And Surprising To Me. The Same Thing When I Mix Divination Into My Readings Or Experiences.

Maybe I Should Do An Experience Of All 12 Zodiac Signs But For Now. I Have Answered Your Question With A Deeper Meaning Of Past Experiences, My Thoughts Of The Sign And The Placement Knowledge.